Thursday, February 25, 2010

a HAPPY BIRTHDAY 할머니






축 생일 할머니


you have such an incredible life story that has always stuck with me and changed my life and how i view God. i know you lost your husband while giving birth to my mom and it was the hardest thing for you to let that go...you never remarried because you told me that God's love is and was bigger than anything you could ever imagine and knowing being all alone does hurt and you feel lost..you told me that God was always with you. taking care of your 3 children was so hard for you because of work and no one was there to help you along but yet you turned to the Lord for help and need and God answered. you took care of val, nora, sam, me, jon, paul, hannah, makayla, maxwell, liz, ruth, and ben...and you have managed to see all of us grow up and be adults, some youth, and some kids still. i would always see you constantly praying to the lord and reading your word daily and it just didn't make sense to me back then of how you could do it but now it all does.

i remember one day when i was desperately sick and yet needed my mother there with me...you were there right by my side and told me everything was going to be okay. i was scared as a boy and felt in so much pain but you told me to just pray to the Lord for strength and you prayed for me. as i write this now i am beginning to tear up and tears falling but....then you held onto my hand all night and said to me in korean, "sungeun....i love you so much. you are my grandchild and i will do anything to protect you like my son. i love you very much and you will be okay. now to go sleep and get some rest" i never knew how much you sacrificed until i grew up. you did so much for me and for our family grandma.

you were the strong foundation of our family when we had major fights or arguments with each other....you were the prayer warrior in our family and the root of why we are in love with each other and you always pointed to the Lord to always trust, love, and honor Him with everything that we do. i was so happy to see you on tuesday night for your birthday party and dinner and i will see you again soon. :)


i know you are very sick and tired...but God is there with you grandma, stand strong in the lord always and i am always praying for you. it's now our turn to take care of you : *)

사랑해요 순전히 할머니와 나는 당신을 위해 항상 기도하고 있다.

사랑하는,

성은




Thursday, February 4, 2010

prayer - YOUR LOVE IS LIKE FIRE

what is prayer? prayer is when you are engaging a time with the Father and no wondering how long or how loud you cry out to him. it doesn't matter where you are nor it doesn't matter how long you do it for. what matter's the most is where your heart is in that time of prayer and solitude. prayer is so needed everyday in our lives and in our walk with the Lord. why is that? in the word, it says to call unto him, seek and follow his ways that leads us to the mountain and to meek and yearn for his heart and love.

more and more i'm falling in love to pray. not that i wasn't before but it is so essential. not only prayer is essential but engaging in HIS WORD! i find myself all the time falling in short with this but what i love about the lord is that He is so gracious to us and as long as our hearts are allied with his and in the right place we are able to come to him and seek after his face.

i love hillsong united's new song...it's called Your Love Is Like Fire...it's not out yet but heard the demo of it and it is exactly what my prayer is for our church at livingwater and for our ministries. i hope the lyrics really speaks out to you and let it soak in .. this is the link for the mp3

http://www.4shared.com/file/175436290/b07f9ad0/Your_Love_Is_Like_Fire.html



Verse 1:
And I am desperate for Your touch
A glimpse of Heaven through the glory of Your Son In a moment You can turn a life around
Forever to be found in You

Verse 2:
I am reaching out to find
There’s nothing greater then Your love that hold’s my life
Your grace and mercy that has saved me by Your blood
That’s swept away my shame, O Lord

Verse 3:
And I am surrendered to Your love
Forever humbled by the message of the cross
i stand in your presence and embrace
I will never be the same, O God

Pre-Chorus:
Your Love is like fire burns for all to see
My only desire to worship at Your Feet
So let this fire consume my life

Chorus:
Let Your love take me deeper
Draw me closer to where You are
Cause’ all I want is more of You

Chorus 2:
When You call I will follow
at the Cross I surrender all
Jesus, I belong to You


sungeun.