Grandpa...Visit Again Soon :)

waking up in the middle of the nights...crying and realizing that he's no longer here with me...i miss him so much...i wish i could just give him a big hug and kiss him on the cheek like i use to and hold onto his hands...

i had a dream about him couple nights ago and in my dream, i saw him with my own eyes but in my dream i knew he wasn't alive but there i saw him....in his suit at church and sitting next to my grandma in service..after i see him talking and enjoying being next to his friends and grandma...i wanted to go up and say hi but was too scared? i followed him outside and seemed he was going to go fade away like you see in movies in the bright sun light....i ran to him and grabbed his hand by faith that if he was really there....i grabbed it and he turned around...he looked into my eyes and said hi sungeun. how are you? i miss you so much and i love you very much with a big smile on his face like this.. :D i couldn't help but to cry and he told me not to cry and that he'll see me again and check up on me sometime soon....i asked if he could stay with me just a little longer....i cried and begged to him..he wiped the tears and my boogers haha and he said i love you sungeun and be good and take care of family for me...and he left...

i woke up crying so much that night and i couldn't help but to just get up, sit up and cry out to Daddy...i got to spend time with Him and cast all of my cares unto Him because His burden is light and His yoke is easy. i needed healing and just peace in my heart...i didn't fall asleep till 7am that morning...but i know that just in that dream...He covers me with his love and grace and I am His child and I belong to Him. We all do. We are His sons and daughters..to be His hands and feet.


i will see you in heaven grandpa....i know you're probably dancing and enjoying time with DADDY up there :) can you give DADDY a big hug for me? :D i miss you...i'm graduating soon and wish you could have been there but i know you're watching me...i love you grandpa...and visit me soon again :*)
<3> sungeun