everything IS grace..

this past week.....what a hectic long but yet rewarding week it's been...seriously...


where to start.... :

it was my last week watching my dads office...i'm glad he's coming home tomorrow! i missed him so much! :) and he was so happy to hear about my job i got with apple over the phone and he said "son, good job...i love you my son" (with his korean accent xD)

had my 2nd interview with the District Store Manager of Walnut Creek cause for awhile i will be stationed here..ill explain later on....

LG SF Outing was so much funnnn! we had an awesome time...went to the warf... ate at boudins...then off to ghirardelli square got some ice cream..and went to twin peaks! twin peaks is what made the night and it was so beautiful outside...nice warm cool breeze and beautiful lights...haven't gone there for couple months but going up there with the pppl you love at lw was just heart warming and awesome :)

Apple job story time.......

it's always been a dream for me to work for Google, Adobe, Apple, or big Fortune 5oo companies in my life and always saw myself reaching to my goals and getting there no matter what it took..back in summer last yr of 08 i applied to Apple but never heard from them...after a yr now that passed i applied once again and to Wells Fargo as well....Wells Fargo said we like you but right now we're not hiring unforunately but will keep your resume on file with us and let you know when we will start hiring again for your positions...and i got email that Apple wanted to interview me..i got really excited that morning which was 2 weeks ago and jumped out of bed and emailed the recruiter back (his name is Dustin) and told me to come in on Wednesday the 16th...went in there one of the other managers interviewed me..funny and cool asian girl named Lisa. it went well and we talked for like an hr straight haha and she told me that i would hear back soon....after that i called her on the phone and thanked her once again and emailed Dustin later on that day..


2nd Round process...
it's been almost a week and on monday the 21st Dustin emailed me telling me to come in to meet with the District Store Manager on Wed 23rd...went in there and was put into a group of 8 for group interview....i was like wow...like seriously? lol....but it turned out very well..me and 4 other ppl asked really deep hard questions for the DSM and he loved us hahaha :) .... after an hr of asking questions he ended saying it was nice meeting you all and you all hear back from me on friday the 25th...everyone else walked through the other side of the plaza and i walked with michael...i thanked him..shook his hand and asked for his contact info and he said SURE SAM my pleasure and it was very nice meeting you as well..you're very smart and a thinker..we need more ppl like you :) (inside that made me feel good haha) then we talked about korean bbq haha which was cool...emailed him later that day and called him to thank him as well...


3rd Round process....
on friday lisa called me to ask if it was cool for me to come meet the Marketing Director of California and i said sure and 9am -_____- i said ok! of course....i met with Leland and i was scared this guy reports to Steve Jobs lol directly that is....but he was very chill, awesome, smart, thinker, and very very funny....it was me and 4 other people that made it this far out of 120 something applicants..!!!!! my goodness...so we sat outside infront of starbucks and he was sharing about his heart for Apple and this team and etc...for like 2 hrs straight and it was goood getting to talk with each other and etc and at the end he said "im excited to have you guys come on board with us" inside my mind i was confused...i didn't know if he meant for all 5 of us or just some? was confused but nonetheless he said this is it...after this Dustin will call u you guys to make an offer and etc....thanked him and went home...
went home to change then grabbed lunch with cliff but before he got off for lunch i was in the store and talking to Dustin for the first time and he was a really cool guy..awesome guy who looks like wolverine though hahahaha...he said "sam...let me just tell you right now...*he wispers* offf the record...you're in bro :)" i was like "in as in .... officially hired in??!!!!" and dustin goes "mmhmmmm :) congratulations!" i just wanted to hug him there lol but yeah i was so happy and etc made my year..seriously


for apple...im in a new division of Marketing and Strategic Planning&Developing...i'm the Project Manager for now..till i get promoted later on...they're going to make me travel through diff Apple Stores in Norcal to help plan and develop more effectively to market the products more meaning through visually, layouts, and etc and to talk it out with store managers and executive directors from the corporate office....and after that about 1-2 yrs they will have my OWN OFFICE for me ready :) ahhh i can't wait!!



long entry i know but i tried to condensed it as much as i could...but this is all grace. this is not mine nor it belongs to me...everything i have is a blessing and it belongs to God ultimately..and thank you dad for providing me with this career and the job. you are good and so goood to us...you know our needs when the timing is right. i thank you so much and just want to bless the church now and friends and family more now :)


everything we have is grace...that's what its all about..its all bout him and nothing else.



.EVERYTHING IS GRACE.

just thoughts

going to be posting random thoughts here and there...sorry if i jump all over the place hahaha:


i love when i come to Starbucks order my passion iced tea lemonade with 6 pumps of raspberry syrup...its so good and get the chocolate croissant or the morning bun. it makes me happy haha cause im a fatty


today is my final interview process for Apple so can't wait for that....been anticipating for it but its all in Gods hands...seriously i gave it to Him and if it's HIS will to get it then praise God...if not still..praise God!!


lately i feel out of place..why is that? i mean i let the past go and really moved on from who i was from the past and try to be loving, kind, and bring laughter into people's lives but yet i feel out of place? what do i mean here..? i'm not going to be vulnerable on here because i need to be wise with what i say but it hurts when you hear things about you that aren't true in a group where its suppose to be a COMMUNITY not some gossip, lies, half truth community. that's not community. whether its something big OR small or even both...you don't do that..and that's not what church is about. you thought they care about you or so they "say" they do...actions speak louder than words and you know when someone can be fake or whatever. i'm sick and tired of it .... really i want to rip their heads off but HAHAHA but you know what...whatever i know who i am and God knows and that's whats most important to me and i am who i am because God made me this way


this old harabolgee...came into my dads office moments ago and we were talking about my grandfather...i got really vulnerable haha and we were just talking about how he was back in the days and how he really cared for my dad..and yes we talked in korean i suck...like no joke lol but i understood everything so praise God for that at least lol...how he use to bring my dad sandwhiches every morning for lunch for my dad in the office...how he use to carry me when i was tired and weak..how he loved the lord so much and gave selflessly..whenever i talk about my grandpa i tend to get emotional and teary because i miss him so much and i was just smiling the same time as i was tearing up but i know he's in a better place of course and just miss him...


there are people who i need to catch up with but i find it so hard because we're all so busy...we all have different schedules and have our own lives right? i want to but yet i don't want to bother them...but they say the samething to me hahaha but i tell them i'm always willing to talk and listen :) but i guess people just too busy...and it sucks since you miss them but got to keep them close to your heart always :D thats most important thing..


i'm about to start taking vocal lessons and guitar lessons soon...i want to go to the next level with what God has blessed me with because ultimately it's his and i want to give him back so much more .... i've been wrestling with it..financially its going to hurt...but its something i love doing..music is one of my passion and i'm going to keep going with it till i die! haha :)


that's all for now till next time...


oh Lord, you're beautiful.

the blessed weekend!

where to start...before i left for berk on friday...my charger came in the mail for my new camera!! :) which made my day even better hahaha and was being a cam whore taking pics...but will upload them later on....



what a weekend......all 76 of us went to go river rafting for our fall retreat and it was just awesome. i got to hang out with the fellas and the girls and really get to know them on a deeper level rather than just surface which was good and i see how God just cherishes each one of them :)

got there on friday night..we had night service..it was good hearing joe hyung speak again..i missed it :) and he spoke on the blessing with adam and eve...since our theme this yr is Blessed. its funny how God just placed the forbidden fruit in the middle where everything else was also good around that and how it was a blessing from God to be blessed and be a blessing in the world..to have anything in the world and to concur it but yet they failed to see that and still wanted that fruit..and God has called us to rule over this world in His name for His glory. He wants us to be the best that we are so we can go out and be that blessing He called us to be! what a challenge but yet a blessing..

next day we woke up early and got breakfast..then had morning service..and had some ice breakers hahaha which the guys won!! YEEEEEAHH BOY!! hahaha -___- anyways..then ate lunch and got ready to raft!! in our boat was me, james, mike, karen, tae-sun, dan..and our guide which i forgot his name :( but it was the best boat..seriously we all had a good time and it was fun...we jumped off from this cliff off of a rock...it didn't look too high from the bottom but when you get to the top...oh my ... i freaked out like crazy..i had to let like 3 other ppl go ahead of me first since i couldn't do it at the moment lol but i did haha :) rafted more and more and more..got back to the site...showered and ate dinner and had night service..i really loved last night since i got to talk to people who i didn't know and really got to know them and share my life with them, stories and MORE STORIES LOL i wish i could share more but ppl had to sleep..

woke up at 5:40 am...-_______- cause the worship team had to go early and set up but it felt nice for me waking up early and really enjoying the silent nature haha and had lisa, paula, janice, and sally in my car. it was a good car ride :) got to know them a lot more and was funny sharing stories..LOL...dropped them off and went to church to set up and sound check..i rushed home to shower and get ready and also to pick up pair of shoes since i took black chucks in the raft now they're all nasty and smelly haha..had service which was a BLESSING another great message from joe hyung and ministry time went very well i thought. God is just awesome :)


long update...i know...but i love to share what i experienced. not even words can describe how much more i feel excited and passionate and today when i got home and settled down...i picked up my guitar and never i felt being this passionate before of just playing more and more and wanting to do song writing non-stop..i believe God has refreshed my desire which i've been longing all my life hehe.. :)
and i got to talk to my dad on the phone from korea...going to translate from korean to english...

dad: hows my son doing?!?!
me: im doing well appa..i miss you a lot..how are you ??
dad: im doing well..we won 3 games in a row..now we're climbing up a mountain..8 hrs of full climbing...and i want to die now..
HAHAHAHA so funny... :D




be blessed...but more than that...be a blessing.

the weeeeeekeeeennnd! :D

i am soooooo glad it's the weekend! been a long week working but finally the weekend is here and can't wait! i'm sitting here eating cereal...doing laundry...some packing...about to go gym in a little bit and finish packing for our river rafting retreat! YEAAAAHHH YUHHH!! last time i went with pt and our old yg was back in 2004 or 05...so long ago haha but i'm glad we're going again and this time with the family who i love and cherish the most...L W baby! and joe oh hyung is speaking!! wooooot! :D


i got this digital camera Casio Exilim EX-S600 for free this week :) from one of my dad's clients gave it to me and i didn't know what to do...he said dont worry just a little thank you from me to you i was like so humbled since i've always wanted one but never reeally wanted one at the same time since i want a SLR camera stilL! but praise God! so i ordered the charger through amazon EXPEDITED shipping but still hasn't come in the mail..i ordered it on monday so i can take pics with the camera but still hasn't come ... sigh.... owell :\


i've downloaded Send It On by jonas brothers, miley cyrus, salena gomez, and demi lovato.....i love this song hahahahaha...its a secular song but i love the chorus where it talks about shining the light and sending that on and forth....but good song hahaha ...


i miss my dad a lot and can't wait for him to come back from korea..miss my brothers...miss my grandpa...grandma...whole family, friends....idk why right now but i just miss everyone hahaha but most of all i miss you Lord. and i can tell that you want to tell me that you've missed me for a long time and i want more God...more and more...take me deeper with you...take me...


weekend....here i come...

dadddyy

this morning...my dad left for Korea to play in a soccer tournament with his team for week and a half...i rode the bart with him since i have to watch over his office for him til he returns and it was a goood dad and son time..we were laughing, laughing, and even more laughing at jokes and stupid silly things that only me and my dad understands..and everything.

i miss him already...i wish he was here haha but watching his office wasn't bad since i'm use to running it before..he called me before he took off and said to me to make sure that i take care of hannah and mom at the house and make sure to always help mom and your brothers and sister..and we both said i love you and hung up. :) then some of his clients came in and was so busy for couple hours and i finally checked my phone and i saw txt from him saying "sam....i am taking off now...i love you so much my son..be good. i love you" and i started to tear up because when i read that i could imagine his voice and how he would say it so deeply with a smile on his face...even know i want to cry hahaha yeah i know i'm sappy but i dont care lol..

at least i get to talk to him when i wake up tomorrow morning :D and it hit me when i rode the bart back home....even though God never leaves us...he still says to us..he misses us..he loves us..he wants us..simple yet so deep.


:)

the blessing of laughter

today's message was exactly what i needed to hear....thank you daddy :)


i want to fall in love with laughter again....i want to laugh again...i want that everlasting endless joy once again....

i need YOU...come through me day and night...i am your beloved and you call me your own....i am yours forever...i belong to YOU


take me....find me...search for you...i want to laugh once again... :)



..everything is grace...

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.....i don't know anymore...

i need a vacation and want to get out of here.........

i think it's time for a change



...time will only tell...

T0-day..

today is one of those days where you didn't really look forward to anything but it just comes out totally unexpectedly different..i had a interview with Apple at noon and all i can say the recruiter and i had a great time chit chatting away for about an hr. haha..i told her stories of me of why people think i'm interesting and unique...it went very well and was a success thank you JESUS! :D

after went to the mall with cliff to grab lunch at at chipotle...then did some window shopping...i was going to buy something at heritage but i decided not to and use my money wisely so i didn't...although i really wanted that jacket i refused to not buying it heh..then did more window shopping and went home..

got home and shared the wonderful news to my mom and sis haha and when i got home suprisingly my aunt (sampu's mom) and my grandmother was there waiting for me :) as soon as i came to give my grandmother a hug she began to cry since she missed me so much since she's still recovering from her cancer and sickness and i cried with her haha but it was a beautiful moment for the both of us..after that...went to the gym...came back home..chilled for couple hrs..showered then went to grab yogurtland with cliff. hahaha man we crack ourselves up....after came back home and here i am just updating....this is where i am today...


things have been changing lately...i'm just not use to it..but change is good but its a hard thing to grasp especially if things just change all of a sudden? :\ idk what i'm saying here...lol....i don't want to say everything here since it is pretty personal but yeah...i do miss how it was but things change...people change....we all change..don't we??? who know's...maybe its for the better..or maybe it's not....only time will tell.



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miss you grandpa...
wish you were here so you could've seen me graduate in july..and tell you about my interview today! D; miss you.

i need a title.....

i wrote this song while jamming at Crystal Church (in Texas) on the night we did a praise night before their retreat with a melody....then i wrote the verse, chorus, and bridge at the retreat....and just yesterday at home...i completed this song with verse 2, 3, and 4...for some reason i felt like God was telling me all i want is you and just you alone...i don't need anything else from you but your heart ..so can i have it? and many times i think we try so hard to do everything and give everything at once..which is hard if you think about it..but at times, its just all about simplicity. Simplicity to worship, simplicity to love the Lord, and simplicity to write and sing out songs to the Lord. and this is what this song is all about..simplicity. acknowledging what Jesus did for us and really laying down and say i need you...i want you more than this world can offer to me..i want to love you and go deeper.


i'm going to try to work on the recording next couple weeks for this song and try to make it as good as possible... :) hope you guys enjoy it! it's a mid tempo song like Everlasting God..




Verse 1:
At the cross, where you laid down Your life for me
where I've been set free, I've been set free

Verse 2:
Your love is pure and has no other bounds
love so amazing, love so amazing

Chorus:
Lord, I give You everything
Lord, I give You all of me
take me to that place of love and rest
where my soul cries out for more

Verse 3:
More precious than gold, more precious than silver
You are all I want, You are all I need

Verse 4:
Lord, I long for more of You in me
So come and empty me, come and empty me

Bridge:
Jesus, come and fill my heart up once again
let my life be filled with endless joy


hope this song speaks out to you...whatever you may be going through.. always look unto Him for strength and give Him your all. all He wants is your heart and nothing else :D


and i still need a title for this song....


sam.cho

in the morning..

for the first time in 2 weeks...i was able to sleep well lol and i feel really good and i missed waking up early :D most people don't like waking up early but i do most of the times but love sleeping in...hahaha i don't know what i'm saying..anyways...

woke up this morning around 5:40am and drove to one of my fav places i go to which is about a 20 min drive but at this point i didn't care.....then after i went back home and slept for like 2 hours :D....took a picture before sunrise (NOTE: i did some lightroom effects :p)


but i love this picture...why? i sat there in silence and really able to scope out the view and enjoying the scenery and imaging what my life would be like in 4-5 yrs from now..would i still be here in bay area? would i move? what would happen and etc...took my guitar with me...i take it almost everywhere i go :) and started to write a song and hopefully finish soon....lots of things running in my head but i know God is good and His plans are for me.


i will never forget what this lady told me before...
"sam.......doing what you want to do and doing what God has in plan for you are two different things. you may do what you want but it may not be what God wants you to do or be even though it sounds amazing or great...always make sure that you do everything of what God has planned for you in your life.."


miss you grandpa : )


sungeun

waiting..

i always find it amazing when you're just sitting and waiting for the Lord to speak and you expect for Him to come like a fire from the heavens or heavy wind that rushes down into your heart or even a big voice but i love what King David writes here in...

Psalms 46:10
"Be still and know that I am God"


i think many of us tend to expect God to move in or speak to us like fire, wind, or something crazy but sometimes...He wants us to just be silent here and wait for Him like a gentle whisper..i want that in my life..more and more..i need that more and more..


waiting here in the silence for You......come and fill me..overflow my cup with Your waters that springs into life..


...i am waiting...

update?!

time to update! :D i know it's been about what..almost about 5 months now but updates are to come very soon..i promise :)

- sungeun