Sing To Him A New Song

so it's been awhile and everyone been asking me how come you don't blog?! well to be HONEST, i've been busy with school and graduation coming up, finals coming up, family, friends, finalizing songs and editing them, recording new songs, writing new songs, learning new stuff on the guitar, going out to berk to the people who i love the most :D, umm...washing dishes, doing laundry....hahaha i'm just giving a whole spiel ... but also been resting a lot in the Lord which is good and awesome. :D

i titled this entry dedicating to one of my most recent songs i'm currently working on. it all started when i had a dream last week around mid week....in my dream was Joel Houston...if you don't know who he is...he's the hillsong worship pastor/leader and also for united live team....you probably see him on tours, cds, dvds, what not, anyways it was just me and him inside this beautiful house that was very pretty...normally houses are nice, big, amazing, but this house the inside was just PRETTY! we were sitting on the couch and we were just sharing what God's been doing in our lives, sharing each other's songs we wrote and currently writing, talk about living water and hillsong church! haha and guitar stuff and etc. :) but the whole time as i was hanging out with him and talking to him, it didn't feel like he was Joel. it felt like Jesus. then Joel says "hey sammayyy (with Australian accent LOL)... show me a song" so i said okay so i did and he said "no no..do something new...show me something new...sing to me something NEW" and for a moment i paused and didn't know what to do then joel says to me "just sing a new song from your heart. you never sing or rather yet people never sing about songs from their lips..just sing something new from your heart sam" so i did......i woke up from that dream after i played a song and was inspired and challenged and memorized the exact melody from the dream. what a crazy dream but awesome. felt very REFRESHING! so yes this is my most recent song i am going to be working on and i'm excited where God leads me through it. don't have a title for it yet but i'm sure God will speak :)

i think many times many of us think singing him a new song doesn't mean just by songs, but its your heart. your attitude. your walk with the Lord. God wants your soul to cry out to Him for more and more and more...so much more that you can't get ENOUGH of it! i encourage you all to sing unto Him a new song. doesn't have to be a song, it can be prayer, words, serving, worshiping, or whatever it maybe how you want to do it...just go for it and let it ring out from your heart to your soul to the Lord

i love what Darlene Zschech says in the God He Reigns DVD during rehearsals and seminars....she says "these songs...what we write or other artist and songwriters write aren't just songs....they are meant to be lived in our lives. before we sing these songs they must be lived. We must be living in and out through and through these songs before they are sung"

if you guys have a favorite worship song or whatever it maybe to connect with the Lord somehow or way, i encourage you to live it before it is sung. :) sing to Him a new song

Beautiful

i sat here today at my house in the living room..listening to this new album of Kari Jobe on repeat ever since Jenny noona sent it to me and i love her album. so amazing...just in case if you didn't know who she is, she wrote the song The More I Seek You that i always sing at large group now hahaha. :p

anyways, i sat here and was looking out through the window the beautiful nature of God. everything is green, living, healthy, looking at birds come and just playing w/each other, staring into the bright blue sky, nice summer breeze feel outside, looking at people just enjoying themselves...what a beautiful thing to see and look at what daddy made :D

this song actually brought me to my knees and my soul just standing still and crying out to Him that He IS beautiful and Holy! hope you guys enjoy the song and i pray it will bless your heart as it did to me


this is the youtube video:
Gateway Worship 2008 - Kari Jobe


Kari Jobe - Beautiful

Verse 1:
Here before Your altar
I am letting go of all I need
Of every motive, every burden
Everything that's of myself

Pre-Chorus:
And I just wanna wait on You, my God
I just wanna dwell on who You are

Chorus:
Beautiful, Beautiful
Oh, I am lost for more to say
Beautiful, Beautiful
Oh Lord You're beautiful to me

Verse 2:
Here in Your presence
I am not afraid of brokenness
To wash Your humble feet with tears
I would be poured out 'till there's nothing left

Bridge:
Holy, Holy, Holy You, You Are
Holy, Holy, Holy You, You Are
Holy, Holy, Holy You, You Are
Holy, Holy, Holy You, You Are

Grandpa...Visit Again Soon :)

waking up in the middle of the nights...crying and realizing that he's no longer here with me...i miss him so much...i wish i could just give him a big hug and kiss him on the cheek like i use to and hold onto his hands...

i had a dream about him couple nights ago and in my dream, i saw him with my own eyes but in my dream i knew he wasn't alive but there i saw him....in his suit at church and sitting next to my grandma in service..after i see him talking and enjoying being next to his friends and grandma...i wanted to go up and say hi but was too scared? i followed him outside and seemed he was going to go fade away like you see in movies in the bright sun light....i ran to him and grabbed his hand by faith that if he was really there....i grabbed it and he turned around...he looked into my eyes and said hi sungeun. how are you? i miss you so much and i love you very much with a big smile on his face like this.. :D i couldn't help but to cry and he told me not to cry and that he'll see me again and check up on me sometime soon....i asked if he could stay with me just a little longer....i cried and begged to him..he wiped the tears and my boogers haha and he said i love you sungeun and be good and take care of family for me...and he left...

i woke up crying so much that night and i couldn't help but to just get up, sit up and cry out to Daddy...i got to spend time with Him and cast all of my cares unto Him because His burden is light and His yoke is easy. i needed healing and just peace in my heart...i didn't fall asleep till 7am that morning...but i know that just in that dream...He covers me with his love and grace and I am His child and I belong to Him. We all do. We are His sons and daughters..to be His hands and feet.


i will see you in heaven grandpa....i know you're probably dancing and enjoying time with DADDY up there :) can you give DADDY a big hug for me? :D i miss you...i'm graduating soon and wish you could have been there but i know you're watching me...i love you grandpa...and visit me soon again :*)
<3> sungeun

The More I Seek You

i fell in love with this song the first time when i heard jenny noona sing it at church and i just love these lyrics...such a simple song but with deep meaning and life into it. as i sat here this week in my bed about the lyrics, i just cried out to the Lord asking for more and more and more of Him. i want more of Him so that i will never thirst again and be satisfied with His love. here are the lyrics:

The More I Seek You

The more I seek You
The more I find You
The more I find You
The more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand
Lay back against you and breathe
Feel your heartbeat
This love is so deep
It's more I can stand
I melt at in your peace
It's overwhelming

Watch the clip here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U3GijrnfStk



Other random facts this week:

* i am an ADDICT OF BLOCKLES..seriously this game is now my life hahahaha...sigh but it's so fun and i always dream about it :D

* got sick this week but i feel God healing me! Praise God! :D

* i wish i could learn piano.....



Father, let this be my lifestyle. i want to seek YOU more, go deeper with You daddy, hold me close to you so i can feel your loving heartbeat, i can only imagine how much joy it brings to You when we cry out to You and askin for more of your love, your love is so pure and holy, it's majestic and brings me peace to my knees, take us deeper with You daddy, we want more, we need more of You....

.AMEN.

Who Am I With Brokeness?

coming back from young adult retreat was such a blessing for me personally. God renewed hearts, spoke with such life and truth, reconciled relationships, and most of all knowing that we belong to Him. during the prayer time i couldn't help but just to simply cry out to the Lord, not seeking for attention but just keeping it between me and daddy. i've been wrestling with something for awhile now and it was eating me away slowly, each day and night i found myself more depressed, more hurt, more confused, more lonely, and more broken most of all. i finally gave it to the Lord and i knew i couldn't carry on with it anymore in my heart. i wanted to bring it up the feet of Jesus and simply ask Him to carry me on His shoulders, wrap me in His loving arms that embraces, and be with Him.

it's been hard because i am getting what i asked for from the Lord which is to trust in Him more and going deeper but also at the same time feeling like your closest friends don't really have the same care, love, or respect for you anymore. hearing rumors, false lies, and being slandered and that affecting not only me but my friends was the biggest hurt that i've had to deal with. sometimes i ask "GOD! FATHER! Why?!" it feels so unfair, i lost close people in my life who i never thought i would lose...... i was feeling that for the past couple months now and honestly speaking, it still hurts when i think about it but i know that i don't find my worth through people or what i do, i AM a child of God and nothing will ever stop that or come between that. finding my place within the Lord is always a hard thing but it's something i believe God is taking me through with my character..

listening to PJ's sermon today on rest was just awesome and spoke a lot of truth and conviction into my heart. one thing that stood out of the other things(which were all good points) is that in order for us to rest and taking our sabbath, we must find ourselves or rather yet, our worth through God and not the things that are happening in your life. too much have i gone forcing myself thinking that i could do it on my own..if i just try to forget about certain situations...or finding more things to say but those are lies from the enemy. we find our worth through Jesus because He declared that it was finished when He was on that cross and saw that "it was good".


Daddy, come and make me whole like you, i want to dance with you when you sing over me, i want to be close to you when i feel like when i'm all alone, i want to be carried by you when i fall, you be the water that i thirst and long for, you wipe all of my tears with your gentle hands, you whisper love songs into my ears which brings life, you restore my heart because you are the restorer and the re builder, so daddy, come and take me as your loving bride with your loving grace and mercy. you are quick to love and slow to anger, in my brokenness...you make me whole and you put the pieces back together. daddy, i want to fall in love with you more each day so take me deeper with you..i can never have enough of you, you are so good and your perfect love endures forever. come and take this brokenness away and make me into your image daddy. come.

.AMEN.